Sometimes I Wonder
Author: angela
From: mandurah, Australia
Age: 14
Date: 30th May 2003, 6:59 AM
Rating: 5
Comment:
Title: Sometimes I Wonder
When one is the other and the other is the one you're talking about. That is how I feel.
When you ca't talk or telll anyone what you're thinking or what you've done becasue you're afraid that it might hurt them or you'll get in trouble. When you feel like everything has changed for the wors from what it used to be. Once everything was painted pink and yellow, now it's all dark dank and dreary. You're the top of you're class at school an in most of the extensionclasses too. And all just to make them feel happy. Then they begin to expect more. So you give it to them, knwing in your heart that all you really want is to be uncontrollable, loud, immature and who you are. The influences of the world. They have fun. ou don't. They don't see. You are covered and protected until you can't stand it anymore. All you feel is resentment and anger. Later it turns into self pity. The self pity turns into life.It all becomes so much that you pulla stek knife out of the drawer and start scratching at your hand with it. you keep on going until the sensaion is paining you. Putting the knife away, you wonder how did it come to this? Am I addicted now? What happened when I am so happy for 5 hours of the day? Then you realise, I'll get in trouble if they figure it all out. And so you lie about it, saying you fel down a sand dune at the beach and landed on a rock. This act you start to beleive yourself. Acting is all it is. You act happy and people belive it. And so the cycle continues. Day after day. Week after week. All until it becomes a way of life. I wonder.
A Storyteller Topic - Feelings
Feeling wonderful? Angry? Lonely? Sad? Don't keep it bottled up inside you - writing is a great way to express how you are feeling - good or bad.
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