I want to make it...but...

Author: Mia
From: Brighton., Other
Age: 14
Date: 11th Feb 2004, 4:07 PM
Rating: 4
Comment:
Title: I want to make it...but...

Darling I want to pull through,
Honey, I really do.
I want to be able to make it.
To grin; to smile and mean it.
I want to laugh- forget.
I want to break free and run away.
Run away from me...
From my pain.
From my hurt.
My strife.
Darling, I don't see how it can end.
Nothing is happening.
I'm not better.
I have all this help- but to no avail.
Physcologist. Counseller. Nurse. Friends- you.
And I'm really sorry.
I don't mean to sound ungrateful.
But I can't hold on much longer.
I need it over.
I really do.
I can't make it for much longer.
I can feel myself slipping away.
Tuesday was unfair. Just more pain.
I don't know. It hurts.
Honey, I want to be able to feel at total bliss.
I want to be free.
To walk around my school- NOT SCARED.
I want to be able to laugh at how ridiculous this is.
I want to pull through.
To 'get over it'.
But I don't think I will.
Maybe it sounds stupid- but the end has to include 'her'.
One way...
I need it, hun. I really do.
Just so we can talk it through.
Go over it. Understand.
Be at peace.
I'd have to keep it up though.
Not speak. Just see. Maybe walk with you up there.
But its worse. And its getting worse still.
Not better.
So can she stop it?
I think she can.
We just have to go over it properly.
Maybe I want just a simple way for it to happen.
Maybe.
But maybe it really will work.
The physcologist agrees! Please let it.
Please let 'her'.
But I have a feeling she wont.
Darling, don't hate me if I let go.
If it never happens.
I love you always. All the time.
Thankyou so much darling.
But hun, don't hate me. I don't want to hurt you.
I just hurt too much myself.
It does depend on her.
She does have that power.
What would it be to 'her'? To go over it?
It would mean inconvience.
But for me it would mean EVERYTHING.
I don't know anymore.
Just forgive me.
I'm so sorry.
I will try. I'm trying.
But if I can't. If I really can't.
Don't hate me.
Honey, I want to make it.
I really do.


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